Friday, June 18, 2010

Nothing beats a sunny day by the pool.

As I sat by the pool this morning, and watched as my children played in the water, I had a great man sitting beside me, I was once again reminded of my blessings and just how fortunate I really am.
Part of me realized that there was one thing missing from this almost perfect day, and that would be my nick. Somewhere far away, fighting to keep this country free, so u and I can enjoy our freedoms. If he were here and safe, the day would be perfect.
And it assures me all the more, that these are the moments that are too precious to pass by.
It assures me, that life really is too short, and I want to savor every minute of it. And it makes me thank God even more, for the insight and the realization, that no matter what it is, I can do it, big or small!!! Stop, and just look around you, take inventory, what matters, what doesnt. You may be surprised at what u might find.
Till we talk again.....

Sunday, June 13, 2010

Random Acts of Kindness

Today I was at Wal-Mart, needed some painting items, cuz we are painting the dining room over before the new wood floor goes in next month. I was in line at the check out and a couple walked up behind me with a big bag of dog food and that was it. I turned and told them they could go in front of me, because I had a few items in my basket and I didnt want them to wait.

Well you should have seen the looks on their faces! It was a kodak moment, the husband mumbles somthing like "are u sure"? and "I will make this a painless as possible"? I smiled and replied, "No worries" go ahead. When they were done checking out they both turned to me and said "Thank you so very very much." I replied with "Sure, enjoy the rest of your sunday."

After they walked off, I thought about it, and realized that this was the same reaction I had gotten when I had done this before. Are random acts of kindness, really that random?

Is it really that difficult for someone to let other go in front of them in the grocery line?

Is it just me who does things like this or do ya'll do it occasionaly also.
What if every person did one random act of kindess a day? Wishful thinking?
Is it? Maybe...

But I'll bet the world would be a happier place or at least someones day would be a little brighter, if we all just stopped for 10 seconds and thought about it.

Have I got u thinking now?

as always, until we meet again.....

Fear Factor

"Fear and anxiety can diminish one's soul while completely mutilate ones true self."

A friend made that statement on one of my other blog posts and it intrigued me. So lets talk about what keeps us from truly achieving things, or more so merely trying. Fear! Fear paralyzes us from taking that bungee jump or skydive, it may even prevent us from somthing so simple as telling someone we love them.
For me, its all about fear, and insecurity, but insecurity is another post. I do think that the two walk hand in hand.
If you sit and ponder this idea for a while, I imagine you could come up with a list of things that fear has prevented you from trying, doing or achieving. Why? Well, failure would be the driving force.
I don't like to fail, does anyone? and trust me, this year I have become an expert in that particular dicipline. Somthing I am not proud of, but not afraid to admit, and certianly not afraid to face.
So where are we so far? "I don't want to do it, because I'm afraid of failing."
Sound familiar? no need to raise your hand, LOL, more things to think about.
So what can we do about it? Well, overcoming that fear, probably a good start, easy in theory, not so easy in action.
This one, we have to take baby steps with. My faith in God always helps me, I trust that God will take care of it, but it doesnt stop me from not being afraid, well sometimes it does. Those of you who know me, know this to be 100% true.
But lately I have realized, that I dont want to be afraid anymore. I want to jump out of that airplane, even though as I write this, I am terrified of the idea.
But I am determined to grow a set, overcome my fear and do it. I am sure I will be screaming the entire way down. (Video to come later)!
I know that I have let my fear stop me in so many ways, I cant count them all. I have missed out on way to much. I plan to miss out on nothing more....

What has your fear stopped you from doing?

Until next time........

Friday, June 11, 2010

You Seek up an Emotion and your cup is overflowing.

Ah sweet emotions, not the Aerosmith song, but those tiny little or sometimes great big things that throw us into a tailspin more than we would like them too. People always say, dont make a decision while your emotional. But isnt that exactly what everyone does?? LOL.

From the time we are small, we are told a variety of different things. "Don't cry, cry, don't show your emotions, your weak if you do... etc,etc, Well I say, forget all that... Scream from the rooftops, roll around on the ground and let it all hang out.
You see the worst thing we can do, is to bottle it up.

I have been told by more than one person, that I am an "emotionally packed person". Now the 5 of you that are laughing... knock it off. Me? emotional.. Never. Okay, are you done laughing. Actually, go ahead laugh, because it is funny. The interesting thing about me, is that its raw emotion. Now that being said, that can get me into trouble sometimes.

Not in the literal sense, but if I dont keep it in check, I end up doing more damage to myself than anyone else.

these days I tend to think of myself as an onion, "You gotta peel me back layer by layer." ( thank you Sandra Bullock from the blindside) So are emotions a good thing, or a bad thing....and how do we really take control and not let our emotions control us.

the answer you come up with, may actually surprise you.....

I will speak again with you soon.

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Funny the Way it is...

I had a converstion with my sister on the phone the other day, and I was telling her about my new thought process, my "enlightenement" so to speak. We had been talking for about 30 minutes and she said can I ask you a question? "Did a doctor tell you somthing and you just dont want to tell me?"
I laughed harder than I had laughed in a long time, and said, "No, Im not dying, but trust me, if I was, I would be planning a trip to Italy and not to the west coast."
It made me think though, it really was a good point...No I wasnt dying, what my plan is, is to start LIVING!!!
Fuller and more than I have ever done up to this point. You see the question is not WHY? but WHY NOT? I take great comfort in knowing that there is so much more out there that I havent done...and that the things that I thought defined me, really didnt at all.
That there really is some true purpose and true meaning to why I was put on this planet.
It also brings to mind a quote by an author named Leo Buscaglia. He says, "Live each day,as if it were your last, cuz you know what, one of these days, your gonna be right."
food for thought friends, food for thought...... until next time

Friday, June 4, 2010

Its a New Dawn, its a New Day, Its a New Life for me, and I'm feeling good....

Okay so you win a prize if you can tell me who sings that song. It actually is quite fitting given the recent events. Part of me is breathing in a new wind of change, I recently began to wonder, just what exactly was my mark on this life going to be. What was my legacy to my children going to be? at 43 what had i done? what had I seen? to be truthful it wasnt much.
Now dont get me wrong, there have been things of course, that I have accomplished, and I am not taking those things for granted. My son Nicholas, of course, my greatest accomplishment so far. My children, my husband, my military service, but it really runs much deeper than that.
For example, listening to the guide at the zoo, about the african elephants ear being shaped like africa....
How did i get to 43 and not know this??? LOL What a true miracle of God, that when he made that elephant, found on that continent, has ears shaped like his home.
It has set a blaze a fire in me, that I have realized my bucket list... HUGE, MAJOR BIG and my life is already half over.
Now dont get me wrong, this isn't about a bucket list either. Its about ME...seeing things, and doing things and making those memories with my kids, its about things that are so much more important than the things that I thought defined who I am...
It's about self discovery, self actualization, and most of all its about not wasting another second of my life.........

until we talk again