I have been struggling and struggling and struggling...the struggle never seems to end. I have been persuing this weight loss, and have not seen the scale move like it should be moving, I am studying day and night, my patience is short, I never feel like I rest. I woke up this morning on the verge of a panic attack. I have seen subtle changes, but honestly its just not coming off quick enough. I am starting to doubt my ability to succeed at any of this.
Then there is school, a never ending battle against a mountian of information that I feel like I am drowning. No matter how much I read or study, I feel like I know nothing. and that is just as frustrating, my trainer cut my calories to 1500 per day.
I feel like i am always hungry. I just dont want to fail....
and I feel like failure is looming ahead of me, just waiting, stalking me. I know this is just one big pity party, and I have soooooooooo much to be thankful for. I am just so tired and so discouraged, I dont know what else to do....
thanks for reading, and pray for me, really hard, I need all the help I can get.
thanks, and until next time.....
